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There was a time I thought you loved me; I time I thought
you cared. Not because we share blood, but because you chose to. Well, now I am
a bit older, not sure how much wiser, but something has shifted. Have we really
grown apart? You seem to see what you want to see, not concerned if what you
perceive is fact or fiction. Living in your own reality, oblivious to me. What once was said in love, now seems spoken
out of frustration, maybe even disdain. When you once listened and cared, you
now berate, belittle, command. The person who listened, and loved, seems
forever lost. Tearing down what once was built from genuine love. If love is
patient, love is kind… Why am I falling apart bit by bit, piece by piece? Left
in a pile of rubble, feeling useless, ugly, unloved, unwanted, a nuisance, an
idiot. A fool and a failure. Invisible. Now when I need you, as you once were,
all I get is discord, not understanding. You seem to forget that I AM HUMAN. I
feel, I bleed, I hurt, I cry. I feel small, a nobody. I have dreams, and
wishes, hopes, and fears. I breathe, I eat, I have wants as well as needs. I AM
NOT A ROBOT. Which you seem to think. I do
not need you to make me feel bad, I can do that all on my own. I miss the way
things were, but the past is gone. What you think is out of love, has only made
me feel worse. You choose to ignore and destroy what little bit of hope and
faith I have left. Deaf to my pleas, and concerns, it all seems to circle right
back to you, so you feel guiltless and secure, a success. All it ever seems is
I do things to please you. Whether or not there useful or beneficial for me. I really
do think you live in your little world, ignoring reality. Forgetting things
change. Things evolve. Now that I need you more than before, you are not there.
I turn around and only see an empty space, that once contained a loving, caring
person. Now all it is a space full of air.
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